sad

I'm watching "Black or White: Kids on Race" on CNN.

This is the saddest documentary I think I've ever seen. All the little black kids thought that white children are smarter, better looking, that adults like them better, etc.

All the little white kids think that black kids are dumber, look bad, and wouldnt want them as class mates.

ALthough the study can't be the final say on how children see race because of the sample size the conclusions can be taken very seriously.

It just made me really sad to hear 5 and 6 year old talk about how their skin color is ugly, and that people their color are dumb, or not smart. The children of our day and age shouldn't have to deal with these issues. While we should always see colors, and know the differences in tones we should never think one color is worse or better than the other.

*sigh* I dont even think I can go to sleep now.

let me tell you

God is good

words

I dont know if I need to seek some proffesional help.

I get angry very easily. A lot of things can trigger it. I have been doing a lot better at watching what I say, and trying to do a better job at getting the intent across of what I do say.

Ever since I have made this comittment to guarding my tongue people have begun to talk to me like they have no sense. Just talking to me all kinds of crazy.

I just had another conversation with a fellow dancer about how we are really well mannered, calm African-American people. We both feel that the non-African American dancers that we deal with have no clue to vast difference in temperments our culture has. These particular people really dont know the danger that they are in speaking to us in that manner.

Just in danger and dont even know it.

Ill keep up the fight though.

Pray

I've been praying for all the people who have inspired me.

I've been praying that the Lord blesses their life, and that they have peace and calm in their life.

Unfortunately some of those people have inspired me due to their negative acts towards me. For them I pray that they have good heath, and a long life. I've also been praying that the Lord will gives them direction in their life.


I hope that you will pray for the people in your life that have had an impact on the person you've become.

Severing My Connectons

When I join an organization, or commit myself to doing something I put all of my heart and soul into it. When I leave that commitment its hard for me to let go. But thats exactly what I need to do. I just dont know how.

In everything I do I try to see how it could benefit this organization. But they dont care about me. Why should I continue to try to be a service to them?

It makes me pretty sad to be treated with such disregard by certain parties in the organization. But I guess thats life.
It is what it is.

As for now I'm done. i'm going to concentrate on me and mine.

Figure it Out

im on to the next one.


I am so ready to perform. I miss it sssoo much. I'm gonna figure out a way to do that ASAP.


Sounds like its time for a project.

inspiration

www.creatingopps.com

Lisette Bustamante is a super dope choreographer and she has a website with her buisness partner Chonique Sneed. If you are a dancer you should check it out.



This picture goes with a post about finding out what makes you, YOU, and making sure to create an image for yourself with the things that make you different. Don't get caught up in why some people are getting calls and you arent, or with the craziness of the dance scene. There is only one YOU, and be confident that what you have to offer is valid.

audition

ill be there...that means you should too.

change

BZU changed dates. You should still go!

its a jungle out here

I wish I had someone to help me navigate these shark infested waters.
I wish I had an island of refuge and strength in this sea of confusion.
I wish there was someone with a map to show me where the buried treasure lies.
I wish there was someone who could show me how to thrive in this confusing jungle.


I feel like I'm shipwrecked on a deserted island. I wish I had someone to show me what to do, where to go, and some encouragement to make sure I keep surviving.

But I don't.

So I'll keep praying, and making the decisions that I think are best. I'll keep fishing in the same waters, and creating the same shelters. I'll weather this storm just like I've weathered all the other ones.